Odd that my first entry in this journal wouldn't be about drawing. But seeing as to how music is gonna be a big part of the feelings and ideals that I want to express visually through these hands of mine, I figure this is an moment that should be written here.

Today I brought my guitar. My first one. And it's not just a guitar for me. This is probably the first time I've acted and went forth towards a dream of mine that I've wanted to come true. Back when I was a kid, I would love to do new things instead of being crampped up inside the house playing my video games and watching T.V. My parent couldn't really afford the extra's in life back then and anything physically strenuous was out of the question in her fear of me getting injured. I had wanted to draw. I had wanted to play an instrument. I had wanted to learn self-defence. I had wanted to play sports regularly. But I couldn't, wouldn't, shouldn't. Or at least one of those.

I know my parents are quite baffled and I wouldn't be surprised if they are a lil bit un-approved of this "lil" new thing of mine. But seeing as to how my life has turned to this day...if there was anything I want to act on now, it wouldn't be any less than the dreams I had wanted back then. Then slowly from this first step I hope that my dreams of now can be more than just dreams someday.

To make your big dreams come true, you have to be able to make your small ones come true first.

Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings Clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry.

Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?
I shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never quite returned.

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cuz I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If a flame's what it takes to remember my name

~J.M~